I keep having dreams. Horrible dreams!
I am always locked out of where I need to be, fences spring up and dead ends appear. I am desperatly looking for something, trying to get somewhere, crying, pleading!
These dreams wake me up in panic with tears streaming down my face, they are dreams about the institution....orphanage 50!
This week I had three of them!
Bobby was in the first dream.
Staff wouldn't let me into his building, they wouldn't let me get to him. Fences sprung up and paths to doors became too muddy to walk down. I caught glimpses of him through doorways I couldn't reach. He was sick, skeletal thin and dying and I just couldn't get to him. That was a bad one!
In another dream this sweet child I met on my visit sat with me sharing pictures of herself at the institution as a baby and then others as she grew. The history of a childhood spent in an institution with no Mummy to cuddle her!
As we looked at the pictures of her life she asked questions. She wanted to know why she had grown up in this place? Why so many of her years had been wasted? Her questioning became desperate and as her pleading increased I began to slip away from her! I tried to stay near but couldn't get a footing, doors sprung up and locked themselves as I fell through them! I couldn't get back to her even though I could still hear her shouting 'WHY?'.
The next morning I looked through the Happy Child Foundation reports about the institution and came across these pictures of her at a younger age! I wept, it was just like the dream all over again!
Or there was the dream when I returned to 50 with a large group of people who were all having fun, it was a holiday to be enjoyed for the people around me, nobody even wanted to see the children. Nobody was concerned that doors to rooms were closed, nobody was trying to climb walls and fences to get in...except me.
I felt sheer panic in this dream and then the crowd turned on me with venom...'you are no fun, lighten up, get a grip, we are on holiday'...strangers in that cruel crowd suddenly became family and friends, people close to my heart, people I loved became berating and mean, disowning me, shunning me, leaving me!
I pleaded to loved ones to understand, to see the big picture but the more I begged the more cruel the crowds around me became. And still I couldn't find the children as a long path sprang up before me, leaving me abandoned and alone. Wooden fences appeared with pointed tops, threatening to stab anybody trying to scale them, edging my path, enclosing me within a hopeless, inescapable tunnel!
I knew the girls of my heart at 50 were at the end of this path that I couldn't escape, they sat waiting and yet I couldn't get to them!
A week of horrible dreams!
And then in this week I received a message from Albert Pavlov, president of the Happy Child Foundation. Part of his message shared the news about a second small group home for the children at the institution!
''We are moving forward in creating a new house for 7-9 children at the institution. The project can be prepared soon. I think it will cost about $20,000 or above to make a good repair of the building''
This was a building Albert had found when we were walking together around the institution. This building could become a real lifeline and pathway to hope for the children I had been dreaming about. This dream is one that I would be happy to dream and I thank God it's one within reach because of the wonderful work of people like Albert!
Albert and the happy child foundation have already created this dream once! They know what they are doing and are passionate about 'why'. This is a team who can make it happen!
|Images from the first small group home being built at the institution.|
Then add into the equation the fact that a BBC team have just committed to filming change out at 50! A series of 3 documentaries capable of causing ripples of change that could sweep across the lives of these forgotten children like a tidal wave!
If any project needed spectacular support it is this one! The timing with a film crew on board is a once in a lifetime opportunity! It is a platform for the voices of everyone helping to be heard! In my dreams I was screaming into an abyss, nobody answered, my pleading was lost...but here, now, God is handing over an opportunity to be heard! Who wants to be heard? Who wants to scream at the world that these children deserve more? Who wants to jump on board with me and join a campaign to support this second house build.
I am about to launch
'The Second House That Love Built, Flight Platform
It will take the format of a number of projects, give-aways and link-ups with the aim of raising whatever we can to support this house and the children at 50! Could we raise £1000? could we raise £10,000? Could we raise $20,000?
I am looking for project managers who could create their own project to add to the campaign...could you be one? Leave a comment if you want to take part and have a project idea or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. All project managers will be featured here at the flight platform and will be added to the campaign project list.
I need prize donations for an immediate project to be announced soon...could anybody help me with this? Again leave a comment or email me.
I am looking for a team to build this second house of love and to shout at the world! Our children and the children at 50 are worth it!! Please be on my team!
Good dreams could be just around the corner.
It's Forget-Me-Not Friday and time to link up any posts you have about the wonderful children at Reece's Rainbow. Try to visit as many links as you can and leave some comment love...we all need support in this warrior family!
Here is the Forget-Me-Not Friday gallery, a tiny portion of all the beautiful, extra-special children on Reece's Rainbow, each one desperate for a family to love them and save them from the terrible fate of transfer at around 4-5 years old into an adult mental institution, where many children will remain cot-bound forever!
Do please link-up your posts about these children of our hearts. Link up as many times as you like and remember grab the button for your blog to help these children find their forever families!
Click on their name links to visit their individual Reece's Rainbow profile page to find out more or to donate. By donating into a child's adoption fund you help an adoptive family raise the huge ransom it takes to save these children...currently $25,000- $50,000! These children really are on the 'frontline' of need, they need us to help, to sacrifice for them and to care!
You do not need to adopt to help. Become a prayer or fundraising warrior for a child, re-post their faces or add my Forget-Me-Not Friday button to your blog and join in the link up. If you are a warrior already then please come and link here weekly on Fridays, let me know beforehand so I can add your child's face to the gallery. Link any post or write using an ongoing writing prompt of 'Forgotten'.
Or perhaps you could adopt? Perhaps you could be blessed by opening up your heart to one of these children? Is your child here?
I am thrilled to be linking up every Friday with 4 awesome ladies who also have big hearts for these children. Go visit Mandy over at, 'Our Adoption Story'. And then visit the amazing Andrea at 'Taking God's Love To The Ends Of The Earth'. and then go give some blogworld love to Julia over at Micah Six Eight. Finally go visit Sarah at 'What it Means To Love'.